23 October 2010

nie lah 1st time ku buat blog,well..saja2 nak try..who knows bleh
kurangkan stress yg ada sa nie..well...today i keja macam biasa
je..pagi2 lagi after send my bro keteknikal terus je i zoom kat umah
sir dkg sg hancing.. actually salah 1 keja i nie is personal
driver..pagi2 macam biasa saja la driving..p nda sangka 2day i kena
bagi recharge card leh sir,actually f ikut jadual sepatutnya isnin
plang tu but ok la..since im too desperate jua kan recharge..

actually apa yg menghantui ku masa nie is bout my relationship with
leeya,i noe sumthing wrong wth our relationship,but she keep saying no
no no when i ask bout it..kalau kan dikut yes..semua nie bermula dari
kesilapan sendiri jua..p nak buat macam mana..semua dah terjadi.. 

"andai dapat ku undur masa by A.X.L's" 

no use kan ddebatkan lagi..f masa berlalu nda jua dapat dundur
kan..actually semua bermula bila saja me yg sering marah2...yg sebenar
ku sendiri nda tau napa ku marah2 semenjak kebelakangan nie..sampai
tekena tampiasnya rah urang len..well kalau kan dikutkan cakap cuzin
i..ia kata mayb sal me puas dah terluka nda jua patut..sal f puas dah
terluka paling trok hati nda dapat menerima sesiapa kan..hmm..mayb
terlalu sensitif kebelakangan nie..ya la..ia bz wth her work den dalam
masa yg sama ku mo bersama ia..i have to learn tuk memahami ia..well
i'll do it..

actually i want to tell her that i really need her..i really luv
her..i really dun want to lose her..but i cant..nda tecakap..ada2 saja
yg terjadi..well..i have to fight for it..sometyms fb anie pun kadang
buat i geram n marah..p ku pun kadang kai fb jua..yg buat geram kadang
nada post txt for me..but i have to belive in her..

baru2 nie her family ada menganggut pasal our relationship..well i dun
mind f kana suh bawa family kesana..its just i still dun have enough
money to prepare apa yg tejadi nanti..baru2 jua kan blajar saving..nie
la akibat boros..dah apa2 baru kan begagas2 menyimpan..actually ku
pernah dah bertunang den putus..well..mula tu timbul persoalan pasal
kan kana suh betunang p terus terang me pun mo pikirkan dlu..takut 2x
lagi kan..but f dpikir2kan..jawapan yg ku dapat pun..semua sama..its
better that way f atu kemahuan family,bukan pasal apa..its true apa yg
durang cakap yg f betunang anie kemana2 jalan pun nada jadi
persoalan..so i dun mind f kana suh betunang lagi..but the thing
is..her...i dun noe whats in her mind right now...

today i didnt take lunch..biasa pertghan bulan..mun paham bisai..p its
ok dapat tahan lagi..gpun badan nda brapa bek la buat masa nie..plus i
got flu.so salera kan makan tu kurang la sikit..well..i nak sambung
buat kaja lagi..i really miss my gurl right now..i have to fight..i
noe i have to change..plz guide me..dear Allah..hear my wish..grant my
wish..let me b wth her..jgn biarkan perasaannya terhadapku kabur
begitu saja..i will foght for our love..so please let us be together...